Philadelphia building facade. 
Last night someone questioned their self worth, lost in the darkness. Anger and sadness and fear for what the future holds conspired to make sleep impossible. 

I was the cause of that. 

Faced with a decision to hurt one person to save many others, to save myself, what other choice did I have? 


There is no joy in it, only relief in the moving forward.


70 thoughts on “Sleepless

  1. Between selfishness and altruism there is you. You can only help others when you are able to sustain yourself. When you are able to sustain yourself you can possibly help someone else.

    Some people are within reach. You decide on that reach. All the best Victo.

    Liked by 5 people

  2. Quite a few years ago, I can see myself as being that sleepless individual. And now, all these years later, I still think about the person who had what I perceive from your writing to be your role in my sleeplessness. If i’m completely honest with myself, I still don’t like the things that person said to me, or that person, and probably never will, but it was only when I accepted the truth in those things that my life began changing for the better. Some people like myself only get a chance because there are people who are willing to be disliked. I may not like those people, but I certainly respect them.

    Liked by 3 people

  3. “The truth will set you free.” It is never easy and it is often painful and many times is used as a last resort – and yet it is true. That took a lot of courage Victo and you know we (your readers) will support you as you work your way through what ever you need to do. 🙂

    Liked by 3 people

  4. As my dad used to say, you gotta do what you gotta do. Sometimes it’s hard on everybody.

    You don’t seem like someone who would be hurtful just for the sake of hurting someone. I suspect he or she needed to hear it.

    Liked by 6 people

  5. I can think of a couple different situations where I have been in that seat, so reading this makes me teary eyed. Life altering changes they were for me. Those are never easy but still need to be faced and dealt with, no matter the pain caused. It will get better for you and for them in time.

    Liked by 1 person

  6. I hate it when that happens. I’m always trying to explain that love is actually painful and this is why. To truly love other people sometimes means we have to tell them “no” or show them that we love our own selves too, or do something that we know will make them absolutely miserable. It’s usually the right thing to do however, which is probably why we sleep so well afterwards. 😉

    Liked by 1 person

  7. Cryptic but understand and respect your discretion. I had a similar experience recently, and although the day after it happened was rough as I adjusted, now I feel much better. There had been too much pretending, and talking behind the person’s back. Although I did not initiate the exchange, it felt good to finally be honest. I honored myself, and that felt really great. I imagine you feel the same?

    Liked by 1 person

  8. I hope you’re sleeping better now. I don’t subscribe to the idea that one person can hurt another’s feelings. It’s their own unmet needs that cause the pain, and they must take responsibility for that before they can know how to get their needs met. So there’s no need to kick yourself, Victo.

    Liked by 1 person

  9. Was in situation once of having to report psychopathic nurse. Had to leave job to protect myself, but investigation proved charges. It was a terrible, painful situation. Even though I knew truth of situation, still felt pain. Hard situation to find peace with. Be kind to yourself as you would others.

    Liked by 1 person

  10. Pingback: My Article Read (7-27-2015) | My Daily Musing

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s